About Me

This blog is about me and my voyage to becoming a mummy. Ironically called “mummy in the baking” as together with my passion and obsession for all things cake related, I will never be able to have my own "bun in the oven." Years of fertility treatment have taken their toll and I now find myself on a new..eek, i hate this word...journey! The crazy train to adoption. I hope you will join me while I bake my way to becoming a mummy. I want this blog to be a source of information as well as a comforter. I hope it will inspire and help anyone who is considering adoption or who has in fact already bought their ticket for this..here I go again...journey. Cake makes me happy and I hope you will enjoy sharing my love of it. I want it to help lift your spirits and hearts through what can only be described as 'the trials and tribulations of the adoption process.' Along with my desire to be a family, I love my dogs, have an unhealthy love of sausages and chenin blanc, adore my land rover uber-nerd of a husband and continiously dream of balmy summer evenings. Baking in progress…..

Thursday, 9 May 2013

PAR excellence.....

I do what I do every day when I dash home for lunch. I check the post. I'm expecting the usual junk mail and bills but...low and behold....there is something else on the door mat. A big fat white envelope sporting the familiar stamp from the Adoption Services. It contains what I can only assume is our PAR. Oh my hat, it is even yielding a first class stamp! I've got ten minutes to read it before I have to go back to the dailiy grind work but it's a whopping 47 pages so I have to save it for later. I struggle to concentrate for the rest of the day as all I want to do is go home, put the kettle on, get a slice of cake and curl up on the sofa with our PAR. Our story and pledge to become parents.  I race home and do just that, while at the same time struggling to ignore the dog who is giving me that 'look'
Miss Delia has done us proud. It's a masterpiece and reading it, I realise what  a wonderful life we have had so far. It's all very positive but of course there are a few concerns. She mainly worries about how I will cope without LRUN all day....like I've said before...to me this is just one less child to worry about ;-) She's also concerned that we have no family near us for support. I've got to come up with a damn good answer to that, as they are sure to ask me about that at panel. I'm still weirdly nervous awaiting  her visit the next day. Not helped by LRUN always insisting on using the sparkly clean loo for a last minute no.2 -  minutes before she arrives! We welcome her back into our home with open arms. The dogs are so excited to see her, in fact I swear the small one is doing some sort of little dance. She spends a couple of hours with us to ensure we are happy with the PAR but reminds us that they have no suitable children for us at the moment. Nonetheless,  it's a positive meeting. I tell her I have made a new cyber buddy who has been a huge support to me recently...hello Triple A :-) She also had Miss Delia as a social worker a while ago. I tell Miss Delia what a wonderful job she did with Triple A's match. Their little bubba is such a perfect match for them. The next minute I look up from my chocolate chip cookie and notice that she has welled up with tears. She was really touched by this and I think...crikey, I've made Miss Delia cry. I warm to her even more. She tells me that the dreaded HRH has read our PAR and the only comment she had was "Oh my gosh, I want the life they've had!" This is good news as HRH will be on the panel and is a notoriously hard act to win over. We wave goodbye on the doorstep and she says.."see you on the 29th". You bet ya!
So with 20 sleeps to go until panel, my plan for this weekend is to perfect that red velvet cake...watch this space.

1 comment:

  1. So Glad you PAR is brilliant but we knew it would be! Panel will be a breeze try to relax and enjoy it babe! Wonder if the Fraigs are getting very excited now? I will email them. SW phoned last night and the match is going ahead! So we have to prepare and start now but may have our new child living with us between August and October ! Adoption is too vivid and emotional, highs and lows and I seriously don't know if we will do this again. 3 children are enough for us and maybe one day we will foster. It's definately been a rollercoaster. Love ever Rainex (Miss Rainbows)