About Me

This blog is about me and my voyage to becoming a mummy. Ironically called “mummy in the baking” as together with my passion and obsession for all things cake related, I will never be able to have my own "bun in the oven." Years of fertility treatment have taken their toll and I now find myself on a new..eek, i hate this word...journey! The crazy train to adoption. I hope you will join me while I bake my way to becoming a mummy. I want this blog to be a source of information as well as a comforter. I hope it will inspire and help anyone who is considering adoption or who has in fact already bought their ticket for this..here I go again...journey. Cake makes me happy and I hope you will enjoy sharing my love of it. I want it to help lift your spirits and hearts through what can only be described as 'the trials and tribulations of the adoption process.' Along with my desire to be a family, I love my dogs, have an unhealthy love of sausages and chenin blanc, adore my land rover uber-nerd of a husband and continiously dream of balmy summer evenings. Baking in progress…..

Thursday 22 August 2013

Small seeds grow into big things......

I seem to be so unfazed by Miss Delias impending visit today. In fact, I have the Rooibos tea for breakfast, so I can save the last remaining tea bags for her. Even the biscuit jar is looking particularly dire. I may be able to scrape together a couple of chocolate shortbreads to offer her. Gee whiz, this is not like me. How things have changed since those first meetings, planning my cookie choices for weeks. But I feel disheartened and I think I'm just protecting myself from yet more disappointment. She's late today too as her furry friend needs to get to the vet, so we wait for her. Not anxiously like we used to but LRUN is out in his man-den shed building something random and I browse pinterest for new cake recipes, thinking about this Rhubarb and Custard Cake, glancing occasionally at the barren biscuit jar thinking I really should have made the effort.

She finally arrives and in the rush to get her out of the rain and into the dry, I clock a few extra pages peeping out of  her notebook. I quickly remind myself she is here to talk about going on the national adoption register and that these pages are probably the application forms. After a few minutes of idle chit chat about the cat, her face breaks into the most radiant smile, she reaches for a stale shortbread and says she is pleased to tell us she has somebody special to talk to us about today. I nearly choke on my Rooibos tea but I try and remain calm and listen intently. It's a blue one. A big blue one. A sweet endearing big fat blue one. Its a long intense session and we both listen closely and try to take it all in. I forget all about the biscuit situation. There are a few medical issues that need to be explored together with some identity matters but we both feel we would like to hear more. She shows a picture of him together with his birth mother and I will admit, I am shocked by this. I wasn't expecting so much information first time round and I find myself staring at her more than the big man. She looks so happy. So young.

I have to rush off to work and Miss Delia says we have until Tuesday to decide if we would like to pursue this match. There is a lot to think about and I find work really hard to concentrate on. Triple A is my saviour and sends me encouraging texts throughout the day. As each hour passes, I keep seeing his chubby little face. I send LRUN a text saying I think the big man is growing on me and I desperately want to know how he feels.  LRUN replies saying 'he's thinking'. This is one of the busiest bank holidays we've had coming up filled with forest theatre, bbq's plus I have a huge vintage cake order to make and deliver.  I just need to find the time to sit down with a cuppa (after I've done the groceries and bought more tea that is!) and just soak all this info on the Big Man up.




4 comments:

  1. I really hope your big man becomes your special son. AAA xx

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  2. I hope he is the one to eat your cakes and biccies xxx Rainbows

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  3. Big man = big warm family xxxEm & Bella

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  4. Thank's for your information and i like yoe post ^___^

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