About Me

This blog is about me and my voyage to becoming a mummy. Ironically called “mummy in the baking” as together with my passion and obsession for all things cake related, I will never be able to have my own "bun in the oven." Years of fertility treatment have taken their toll and I now find myself on a new..eek, i hate this word...journey! The crazy train to adoption. I hope you will join me while I bake my way to becoming a mummy. I want this blog to be a source of information as well as a comforter. I hope it will inspire and help anyone who is considering adoption or who has in fact already bought their ticket for this..here I go again...journey. Cake makes me happy and I hope you will enjoy sharing my love of it. I want it to help lift your spirits and hearts through what can only be described as 'the trials and tribulations of the adoption process.' Along with my desire to be a family, I love my dogs, have an unhealthy love of sausages and chenin blanc, adore my land rover uber-nerd of a husband and continiously dream of balmy summer evenings. Baking in progress…..

Friday, 20 September 2013

What a feeling..being believing.....lalalaaala...!

Holy schmakaroo. To all those adoptees out there just starting on this road to planet adoption or those who are stuck in yet another frustrating delay or setback, please hang in there. You will be a family one day. Your little one may just not be quite ready for you yet. They need a teeny bit more time. This is such an incredibly powerful feeling of happiness and gratitude, I find it hard to explain. LBM's photos are on the fridge and the overwhelming sense of happiness I get when I look at his scrummy little face and cheeky little grin when reaching for a chunk of dairy milk  the milk is so special. I've never had this feeling before and I have to keep reminding myself....this is real honey.

I show his picture to my friends. They are speechless. He is so adorable that they can't stop staring at him.  I bump into Miss Curly Wurly's mom in the local supermarket and we end up having a half hour LBM appreciation moment in the cold meat aisle. There are smiles, tears, giddy little jumps and deep hugs filled with love. I bump into Boobylicious's mom in another supermarket and again there are tears and such happiness. The magic this little boy is creating already, is unbounded.

My search for a celery cake wasn't hugely productive but I did get side tracked to a Courgette and Blueberry Loaf which was diabolically good. I tried it out on my guinea pigs the girls at work. Let's just say, it was hoovered. Until some smarty pants worked out the calories. Don't whatever you do, work out the calories!

LBM turns one next week and it feels odd that we won't be able to share this first birthday with him. I ask Miss Delia if it's ok to send him a card. She replies (yes..yes..eventually!) saying its a good idea. It will go in his life story book and be part of this forever. Eeek, I guess this means we will be signing our first card as 'mummy and daddy'

Calorifc Terrific

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