About Me

This blog is about me and my voyage to becoming a mummy. Ironically called “mummy in the baking” as together with my passion and obsession for all things cake related, I will never be able to have my own "bun in the oven." Years of fertility treatment have taken their toll and I now find myself on a new..eek, i hate this word...journey! The crazy train to adoption. I hope you will join me while I bake my way to becoming a mummy. I want this blog to be a source of information as well as a comforter. I hope it will inspire and help anyone who is considering adoption or who has in fact already bought their ticket for this..here I go again...journey. Cake makes me happy and I hope you will enjoy sharing my love of it. I want it to help lift your spirits and hearts through what can only be described as 'the trials and tribulations of the adoption process.' Along with my desire to be a family, I love my dogs, have an unhealthy love of sausages and chenin blanc, adore my land rover uber-nerd of a husband and continiously dream of balmy summer evenings. Baking in progress…..

Monday, 23 December 2013

Santa baby....

Breaking news kids....the tree is still up! Result. I tell LBM I have 2 exciting things for him today. One...daddy will be home early tonight and two...Grandpa is coming to visit. I have no idea whether he takes any of this in but I tell him anyway. I always tell him what the rough plan for the day is. So he knows what to expect. Right now, at this sensitive time in his life, he doesn't do nasty surprises. He needs to know what's going on. He takes to Grandpa instantly and they bond over a walk around the lake (while I frantically search for black dog who appears to have made a last ditch attempt at a bid for freedom) I love Grandpa so much. He is the best in-law anyone could ask for. He is so hands-on and I am gutted when he tells me he can only stay for 2 nights. LRUN comes home and LBM is acting strange. He is very unsettled and perhaps just a little over-tired but there are some very emotional, inconsolable moments. But he sleeps well and we look forward to embracing a new day. But these moments of unexplained crying continue throughout the weekend and here on Monday night, they have reached a crescendo. We seemed to have regressed massively. One minute he is blissfully happy, the next, he is screaming the house down. I have tried comforting him but he is not interested. I do my best to ignore the tears but at one point, after 45 minutes of solid ear drum shattering screams, I worry we are now into dinner time hungry crying and so pick him up and feed him. He is momentarily happy but it doesn't last long. As many new parents do, we have checked the list of possible physical problems and there is nothing obvious. This is emotional crying. Dark, freezing cold, rainy and blustery afternoons are not helping either, as we are trapped indoors. Christmas is going to be interesting. Wish us luck. There is a new Apple Cake with a Crumble Topping I am dying to try but right now, baking opportunities are a thing of the past. I'll have to start a baking 'wish list' LOL!

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